Phileosophie

I've just started as the cardiology intern at my hospital and I love it. This week we do not have a registrar due to a lack of staff but it has given me the opportunity to step up and take on some tasks that I won't otherwise have had to do. Some times I feel really stretched and sometimes I get frustrated because I cannot remember what the advanced trainee wants me to do (because a lot of it isn't intuitive yet). But an hour or two out of thr work place and I look back thinking that in those hard moments I've grown. I've inched forward in my understanding of this field that I love so much. I've become a marginally better doctor. And looking back, I love every moment of it. The painful ones, the awkward ones, the extra questions, the nurses that won't leave you alone. Because through all of that I've learnt more, I've grown and I've stepped closer to my future in cardiology.

I was reading an article in Forbes today on the world's most influential women and was somewhat struck by the realisation that I float in some of these circles, loosely but in general only by one degree of separation. I have never understood why I have been allowed to meet these people and to get to know them on a personal level. I don't know if anything is meant to come of it, or if perhaps there are just so many of them that all of us know someone or other. But sometimes I can't help but wonder, what the hell. How is it that little old me knows some of the most powerful and some of the richest in the world? I am a nobody. I feel like a nobody. And yet somehow, I've made it to the edges of all this. What??

My friend was just telling me that every night he writes a short 1 page story for a friend of his and the friend writes a short page back. I thought it was an interesting concept that at least will take me away from work a little so I might try it too (and post them here!). I think initially they will just be drips and draps but hopefully in time my writing might as a whole improve and maybe the short stories might become more interesting! Let's see how this goes.