Phileosophie

Man... I don't know what's going on but I'm constantly tired. I got up this morning and was tired. I got up yesterday and was tired. I had a can of redbull and was tired. I'm going to wait a week (just had the flu shot) and if this doesn't go away I'm going to a doctor for some tests. I'm fairly certain it's not anaemia, coz that would have cropped up in one of the tests I've done over the years (Fatigue is an old friend). It may be low blood pressure. I don't think it's due to a lack of sleep or exercise - I've tried both. It's unlikely to be hypothyroidism given that I do not display other symptoms. It's unlikely to be lung pathology as I've had X-Rays for migration purposes which were normal. It's unlikely to be anything terribly serious because this has been going on for years. Nonetheless I'd like to get to the bottom of this. Caffeine is costing me way too much money and it's not contributing much to the

Med is fun. Here's something I did today - I learnt about a condition called cataplexy, which is the loss of all muscle tone when a person experiences strong emotions (even things like laughter). The video below is kinda funny and will probably ensure tha tyou never forget what cataplexy is. LoL.

Hebrews 13:5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Good verse to come back to every once in a while. I think it's easy, when things are going well, to want to start micromanaging your life - to ensure that you do not lose anything you have gained, or to try and squeeze as much out of life as possible. I think it's great to be entrepreneurial, and to be competitive and to work hard and achieve as much as you can but to do all this while keeping things in perspective. We serve a greater God who has ownership of all things and while it is excellent and commendable to strive for excellence I think it's important to remember to live for an audience of one!

Today I found old messages from people I used to know - about 2780 of them, to be exact, but in the spirit of moving on I deleted them all, along with the images I found with those messages. It was very liberating in a way. Just something else to symbolise the growing, the letting go, another step towards forgiveness of those who have wronged me in the past, and who really, I probably would have also wronged. May 2012 be a year of tying up loose ends, removing skeletons from closets and spring cleaning before the new season in 2013!

If life ever came with a manual... Romans 13 ( The Message version) To Be a Responsible Citizen 1. Be a good citizen. All governments are under God. Insofar as there is peace and order, it's God's order. So live responsibly as a citizen. 2. If you're irresponsible to the state, then you're irresponsible with God, and God will hold you responsible. 3. Duly constituted authorities are only a threat if you're trying to get by with something. Decent citizens should have nothing to fear. 4. The government working to your advantage. But if you're breaking the rules right and left, watch out. The police aren't there just to be admired in their uniforms.  God also has an interest in keeping order, and he uses them to do it. 5. That's why you must live responsibly - not just to avoid punishment but also because it's the right way to live. 6. That's also why you pay taxes - so that an orderly way of life can be maintained. 7. Fulfill yo

I've been back in Sydney for 2-3 weeks now and while it is really nice being back in such a comfortable environment a large (suppressed) part of me keeps thinking of my sojourn to North America and how much I'd really like to be back there now. I miss being State-side. I miss the people I've met, the energy, the American dream, the thrill of being in a new city, finding new dreams and heading in new directions. I can't wait to go back to America. Soon mi amore .. I will find my way back to you soon.

This was me up to 2005. Moving to Australia forced me to change!

I love the season I'm in right now. I'm facing my final exams and although it should be a time of anxiety and uncertainty I seem to be going through an expected period of peace. The past few years in Sydney have been some of the best and worst in my life (mostly good) and I feel like I've come through learning so much and growing as a person. I've found a certain joy in myself and found a lot of faith along the way. There are certainly many more things I can learn about myself, about life and about God but I just feel that as a 6th year I am so much more whole as a person than I was in 1st year.Thank you Jesus.

Malachi 3:3 "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver" There was a group of women in a Bible study on the book of Malachi.  As they were studying chapter three they came across verse three which says, "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver." This verse puzzled the women and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out about the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible study. That week the woman called up a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest in silver beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver. As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that, in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the

I find it hard not to feel irked when a parent comes in fully armed with a thousand reasons why her child should not be vaccinated. She is usually misinformed and verging on paranoia, and yet, when she comes in with something as precious as a child, you cannot truly fault her for caring - even if they're reaching the wrong conclusions. I will never be an infectious diseases paediatrician, but that's a good thing, because there are other doctors out there who do not get irked and who have the patience to deal with the misinformation and fears that have been carefully cultivated and encouraged by some very ill-informed parties in the big bad unscientific world. Yes, there are side effects to vaccinations. There are side effects to any medical therapy. These side effects may potentially be serious but they are rare and more importantly, you have a lower chance of being adversely affected by them, than you are by the bugs these vaccines protect you from. I get it, as a parent you

Working on cardiology gives me a peace that surpasses understanding. I can't say it enough because I love it so much. I breath it and live it. I understand it. It is a part of me.

I don't really like the way I write these days. My thoughts don't come as easily as they used to. I no longer have time to read proper literary books and as always, I feel like I have lost touch with the art of writing. Medicine has potentially made me more useful as a human, but I look forward to the day when I can become more human again. I feel more like a person (and less like a machine) when I am able to express my thoughts lucidly, and succintly, but right now I just don't have the time for all that. One day. Hope you like the new layout... I felt like a return to classic Blogspot was due.

I spend a lot of time on YouTube watching videos produced by the young Asian American media community based in California. It ends up being a little strange because I really identify with them and over time it leads me to think that I know them when really, I don't. But do enjoy the video. Some of these people have amazing voices!

I think it would be nice to be the world's best paediatric cardiologist. There are two problems - first, I am not interested in paediatrics as a whole. Second, I still want to do adult cardiology. I think I will go down the adult cardiology route and attempt to also specialise in paediatric cardiology later on.