God's Timing

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Two quick things for today. Pretty sure that the lesson for this point in time, is for me to wait on God. I think God speaks to me through repetition. When he's trying to teach me a particular thing I see it everywhere. On Youtube, in the bible, through my friends and through the pastor at church.

Today's AM sermon was on timing - how God's timing is not our timing.
Today's PM sermon was on letting our lives be the upper room.

The second thing is...
I really hate being sensible when my heart is in pain.
Someone who I had on a little pedestal has kinda turned out to not really be who I thought he might be. Ellie called me today about it. She said she "thought he was a player" from the start and was glad nothing happened between us. I dunno.. he sure seemed like a great guy to me.

God, may I come out of this stronger, as I did after the first half of the year. You have challenged me, broken me, strengthened me, and moulded me. May I be who You want me to be. But please just don't make this part of the journey as hard as the first part. Thanks and much love, S.



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