Phileosophie

I found this piece of writing and thought it captured the thoughts & emotions of a depressed person quite well. Wanted to keep it here so I do not forget to be compasionate towards people with mental health issues.  ------------------------------ Have you ever thought of dying? Of suicide. Wanting suicide. I do not really believe that I will ever kill myself. Because of the fear of God, of taking a life that is not mine. And because of my family. Because I love them and know that I can do so much more for them alive. But it tears me apart, this sadness and desperation tears me apart. I contemplate running to the middle of the road when I see cars hurtling my way. I wonder what it would feel like to be hit by a car and flung down the street like a rag doll. My medical teaching worries me because it tells me that such thoughts mean there is a chance I may one day lose my mind and really kill myself. The sad thing is that even as I contemplate these various ways of dying I kno...

By Victor Kim . Posted here because I need to read this from time to time. its 5:18 am and ive been in the study lounge all night. i have a final (econ 149: business decisions) in less than 3 hours that i feel less than prepared for. but im happy. happy because i know that it will all be over soon. but not too soon.. i have another one (math 4: math for economists) at 1:30. id be lying if i said i wasnt a bit concerned about this one. the final is cumulative and the most recent material covered is multivariable calculus, and to be honest i havent really started studying for it. but for some odd reason im not too worried. i know that things will work out somehow. im obviously not sleeping tonight haha. my thoughts always seem to wander whenever i have a test or some other obligation that im reluctant to do, so im just going to go with it. i am so thankful. thankful for everything. thankful for life, love, passion, and you. ive come to terms with the fact that life is not per...