Phileosophie

I was spring cleaning and going through old diary entries, discarding old notebooks when I came across this scribbled on some note paper. This was one of my earlier ruminations, potentially from around 2020. I thought I would archive it here. I don't know why I entitled this entry as I did. ***** Archived ***** The Fish and the Loaves Be careful of what you ask for. This is something we hear from time to time, but I've not always heeded the warnings that come my way. Back in the day, as a child and teenager I had a pretty decent life. It was easy. My parents supplied my every need. I was doing so well at school that my goal was not to pass or get an A but to get 100%. I had no real illnesses, no tragic circumstance in life. So in a moment of boredom, a moment of wanting some spark or some fireworks in my life, I prayed, God, give me a story. A great testimony. A story to tell.  Sometimes I still wonder, would it have been better to have not prayed that prayer? Could I not have ...

v 13 - All your children will be taught by the Lord,  and great will be their peace. v 14 In righteousness you will be established:  Tyranny will be far from you; you will have nothing to fear. v 17 no weapon forged against you will prevail and you will refute every tongue that accuses you This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and this is their vindication from me." declares the Lord. It feels as though I am living in this promise now, though I don't think I specifically came across this promise back in 2019-2020 when I was living under tyranny and fear. Thank you Jesus for your promises.

Perhaps because I have not understood, and have cried out to God in frustration - explain Yourself! What do you mean by this verse? What do you want from me? He has taken to repeating himself endlessly.  I am the One True God. I am The Beginning and The End. You shall have no idols before me.  Everything has pointed to this one thing, and slowly slowly I am beginning to understand. Please keep speaking Oh Lord, for I am forgetful and may lose this message as easily as it has come. Please keep going for a little longer so it that might sink into my soul.

This is a great sermon and has taught me a fair bit about friendships. The below is an abbreviated transcript, because it has been worded so nicely I really couldn't say it any better than he has. You can't rush relational intimacy. It doesn't happen in a day. Sometimes in the eagerness, because we are so starved for actual people in our life, when anybody shows us any attention, we just come on so strong and lay it on so thick coz we're trying to Amazon Prime the relationship. But when it's just this tiny little thing, you just add tiny little twigs to it and a little bit of kindling to it. You can't get to the big logs right away. That little flame is not enough to take on that big log. So you need friendship kindling and that takes time. There are things in society today that have made it harder for us to develop friendships. There is an increased ease of movement. Where in the past, you would have lived and died in a similar location, these days, you can tak...

Our purpose in life is to praise the Lord and speak of His faithfulness (Isaiah 38: 18-19) so when we pray, do not pray for our own protection or for our own benefit, but pray in order that God may be glorified.  In Isaiah chapter 37, we see Hezekiah cry out to God to save Judah. But he doesn’t ask for Judah’s salvation. He asks that God may prove Sennacherib wrong so that the world will see that God is not like the wooden and stone gods of the other nations.  In Isaiah chapter 38, Hezekiah is given 15 more years of life, after an illness that was meant to kill him. But he doesn’t say that God has given him life for Hezekiah’s benefit. He says instead that he has been humbled by God - that he has been kept alive because if he was dead he would be unable to sing God’s praises. A dead Hezekiah would be unable to hope for God’s faithfulness or tell his children about the Lord’s faithfulness.  Why is God against those who are proud? Because humility allows you to see that all...

 What a beautiful thing. Isaiah is such a dense book, and at first glance, so difficult to read and to extract anything from, but chapter 28 speaks of the destruction that God is to bring upon Israel. It condemns Israel’s pride and reliance on itself. Isaiah sends a warning to Judah because of the alliance they have tried to make with Babylon (rather than trusting in God’s protection). Likewise, in modern times, we place our trust in things that we can see and control - our friends, marriages, jobs, finances. But all these things can fail.  Isaiah calls us to place our trust in God. He also reminds us, that even where there is destruction, God is working. He is breaking ground, so seeds can be planted and new life can spring forth. Spices are crushed to create a form that is more useful, more effective. Trial and tragedy prepare us for a new way.  As always, there is a hopeful end to the chapter. God’s plans are “wonderful” and his wisdom is “magnificent”. We can trust in...